Liam Payne’s sister details devastating grief that leaves her ‘gasping for air’
The One Direction star died six months ago today.
Liam Payne’s sister Ruth Gibbins has shared a devastating essay about losing her little brother Liam Payne six months ago.
Payne died aged 31 on October 16 after he fell from his hotel balcony in Buenos Aires.
The star was laid to rest on November 20 at a ceremony attended by many many famous faces including Girls Aloud star Cheryl, who is the mother of his child Bear, and his fellow One Direction bandmates – Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson, Niall Horan and Zayn Malik.
Now Ruth – sister to Payne alongside Nicola Payne – has opened up about her grief, which she says is ‘impossible’ to live with and makes her feel as if she’s drowning.
‘6 months, half a year without you?!’ she began in the heartbreaking Instagram post.
‘My head is still screaming for you. Each morning on waking, I feel like I am plunged underwater, gasping or air that never comes to relieve me.
Payne died at the age of 31 on October 16 2024 when he fell off the balcony of his Buenos Aires hotel (Picture: Marc Piasecki/GC Images) Ruth remembers Payne as the person who made her laugh the most (Picture: Ruth Gibbons/Instagram)‘Living without you is impossible, so for now, I exist. I’m learning to laugh or smile in the right places, but mate, it’s exhausting when all I want to do is speak to you.
‘In the few moments I allow myself to feel love and not just loss, I can really smile at memories of us, like last year when we were doubled over laughing at us trying to make something we’d seen on YouTube, but memories are always tinged with sadness at how unfair it is we can’t make new ones.
‘I can sometimes hear you laughing at me walking around like Whoopi Goldberg in “ghost”, looking for you everywhere I am. I see you though, you’re always coming through in different ways to put me back on the right path.
‘I can’t process what’s happened and the finality of it, you know I will never stop doing all I can for you.
